Trapped. 

I let you down.

I’m sorry.

My own shortcomings hinder those around me.

Diseased. Sulking.

No escape from what I don’t know.

I hang my head in shame.

A stubborn worthless, coward recluse fuck.

I watch the world pass me by.

You are the only one keeping me from taking my own life.

You hold my last breath and don’t know it.

Let me go.

Alone. The continuous let down.

Disappointment consumes.

There’s no place for me.

Bask in your own misery you hopeless piece of shit.

You don’t need me anymore.

Shovel smashes frozen tears.

Reading the words slides the knife in quick.

No blood left to drain.

I lay alone. Cold. Alone.

Left behind. Bloody and crawling.

She shovels salt into the wound.

Lure him back. He won’t know any better.

Harmless tone of voice makes for innocent piece of mind.

Peace of mind. A piece of mine.

Give it back. You don’t deserve it.

Wreckless. Careless. Impulse.

You’re dead inside. You don’t know it yet.

Leave me be. Let me die in peaces.

Let there be pieces. Dig deeper.

Shape. Mold. Contort.

Eyes brighten at the sight of green.

A sick and twisted world.

Control their minds.

Mom and Daddy with make it better.

God forbid you don’t get what you want.

Mom and Daddy will make it right.

Treat everyone like shit till it goes your way.

Spoiled. Rotten. Manipulative. Brat.

End your own life before I do.

Reoccurring dreams of the end.

You finally think that the right path has been chosen,

Little did you know that illusions hold no morals.

Walking around with a fake smile on your face.

Little do they know you are losing a never ending race.

The insides eaten, blue, cold colored, faded mess.

Many anxious, trembling, shaky hands she could caress.

The time for me is now, soon, here there and less.

The times I wish we had were merely further from the rest.

I REST.

Decapitated. Now I can hang my head lower.

A front row view of the all so familiar bottom.

It swings blindly, gasping for air, they stare in horror.

Lights out. Never ending plummet.

Feel no pain.

For you are it.

The weak feed on the weaker.

The strong feed on the stronger.

The medicore sit and wait in silence.

I feed on myself. For no one can show me the way.

Frozen artillery hurled from frozen skys.

Coats the frigid ground, blinds the naked eye.

Suck the life from that of which you don’t understand.

Accept any who will gaze upon the confused, eager and naive.

Leave the rotting carcass behind.

She limps away as the steam arises.

Stumble, Retreat.

Cowardly. Insignificant. WHORE.

YOU WILL PAY.

PRAY.

YOU CAN’T BE SAVED.

The claws become dull.

Scratching at the cement glare.

The drooling savages close in.

Ripped to shreds from ever angle.

He stands tall while the blood sprays.

Torn and tattered, the bones picked dry.

Half of it still pumps gray.

Greed infested stone faced hordes push, pull, scream and maul until heard.

Gluttonous hedens fiend for crimson curdling screams of the humble and innocent.

Lead him on, Let them in.

It won’t hurt, Until it’s over.